Life is a painful, beautiful confusion. I suppose that's a common way for your typical college freshman to think. I'm so afraid of the future. I feel the desire to control it, but I know that I must simply leave it in the Hands of my Savior. It's not an easy thing to do. I'm a control freak. I wish I could know what the future holds and how I am to prepare for it. But that's simply not the way life works. It's kind of annoying, really. And yet at the same time, I have total faith in whatever it is that God has in store for me. That's the beauty of faith. I know for a fact that wherever it is that God's leading me, He will never fail. As long as it's a place that will lead me to be with Him forever in Heaven, that's exactly where I want to be. Because really, that's what life is all about. Nothing else matters.
Even in my continuing health problems, my struggle to adjust to college, my constant bickerings with my family, and anything that should cause me to lay in bed and cry into my pillow, the God Who holds the world in His hands is holding me close to His heart. I lift my fears to Him and know that even in my constant failures, He will never fail me. To make things even better, His beloved mother wraps me in her mantle and keeps me in her constant intercession. It's a beautiful thing, faith.
Jesus is so loving + forgiving. Great post, girl!
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Hello Rachel. So good to know you through your profile on the blogger. I am also glad to stop by your blog "agnus" and the post on it "It is a beautiful thing really". I am touched by what you have shared on your post, your struggles and yet your dependence on the Lord and hope in the Lord is amazing and very encouraging. Please be assured of my prayers for you as the Lord gives you victory over your struggles. Romans 8:28 says that "And we know that for those who love God all things work together for those who are called according to his purpose." I sure that the Lord is going to make you a very strong woman of God. Well let me share with you about an opportunity you can have of coming to Mumbai, India for a short term missions trip to work with us in the slums of Mumbai amongst poorest of poor. I am in the Pastoral ministry for last 35yrs in the great city of Mumbai a city with great contrast where richest of rich and the poorest of poor live. We reach out to the poorest of poor with the love of Christ to bring healing to the broken hearted. We also encourage young people as well as adults from the west to come to Mumbai on a short / long term missions trip to work with us during their vacation time. We would love to have you come with your friends during your vacation time. We welcome catholics and protestant to work with us with the love of Christ. My email id is : dhwankhede(at)gmail(dot)com and my name is Diwakar wankhede. Looking forward to hear from you very soon.
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