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I sincerely miss blogging. I keep saying I’ll write a post
about this and that, but of course it never happens. Life is so busy, and my
rare moments of down time are spent elsewhere. It used to bug me that I’ve
neglected this part of my life, but I’ve just come to accept it as a thing of
the past. But I do miss it, hence why I’ve returned to write again. Once more,
perhaps. And maybe again in the future. We’ll see.
So much has changed in my life since I last wrote. I’m
growing up, and I’m okay with that. I look forward to see what it is that God
has in store for the future. The thought that graduation is in about a month
and a half brings bittersweet feelings. I doubt that I’ll miss high school. My best friend is moving to Florida ,
though. I’m not sure I’ll ever be okay with that. The end of high school means
the end of so many beautiful things. It’s a scary thought, but it’s an exciting
kind of scary.
I really don’t know what I want to do with my life yet. I’ll
be starting off at a community college near my house at first, and then I’ll
probably move on to the University
of Arizona after that.
I’m entirely sure what I’ll study. Speech therapy sounds like fun. So does
working in the slums of Calcutta .
My life is a constant discernment of what it is that God wants from me. My
future is completely in His hands. I suppose that’s how it’s supposed to be. It
can be quite frustrating, to be honest. I wish He would be clearer in telling
me what it is that He wants from me. My life is a constant discernment, and a never
ending “we’ll see.”
I know a guy that looks like Pier Giorgio Frassati. Even
better, he’s just about as holy, too. He makes me have many emotions. I’m tired
of emotions. I gave up emotions for Lent. It’s not working out very well. Darn
it, boy. This, like everything else, is in the hands of God. This, too, is a “we’ll
see.” I’m not even sure if he reads my blog. If he does, I’m sure he’d know I
was talking about him. That might be awkward. Hi, boy.
I have the most incredible job in the world. I work at a
daycare near my house. I basically get paid to cuddle with toddlers. I’ve
developed a strong love for the thought of God as our most loving Father. I can
see why He loves us so much as His children. I know that He’s calling me to the
vocation of motherhood. I see His love most when I’m caring for children. I
look forward to that point in my life when I finally get to raise a dozen of my
own little saints and teach them to know and to love Him.
This post really had no structure. I’d apologize, but I’m
really not that sorry. It simply feels good to blog again.
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